I haven't blogged for awhile, it's just been busy here with work and my online summer class (which finally ended).
I said I'd blog more about R&R but I really don't feel like it.
It was wonderful and it's hard to talk about now that he's gone again. It was the happiest that I've been this year and I got used to be able to be with my husband again. It really sucked having to say goodbye again, I thought it wouldn't be that terrible but I really didn't want to let him go.
While he was here, we made some changes in our apartment (new furniture) and it's just not fair that he can't be here to enjoy our new things together. I got used to having my man around to help me with things and now I have to do them by myself again. There are a lot of things that a girl just can't do by herself and they just make me miss him more.
I know that I've only got a few more months without him, the worst is over, it's all downhill from here, ya, ya, ya but it's still sucky.
I'm getting ready to start another semester of nursing school without him and I hate that. I spend my nights alone (except for our 2 cats) and I hate that. I eat alone, watch tv alone, do everything alone and I hate it.
I just miss him and I'm still adjusting back to being used to be alone and unhappy. Sorry to be negative, but that's what's on my mind right now. This song's pretty insync with what I'm feeling.
(Funny enough, I just watched the official video for the first time and it's about the military, so perfect for my mood)
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