just over the horizon

Sorry I haven't been on here much lately, I haven't felt much like blogging. As my mother nicely put it, I guess I've been wallowing a little bit.

I had a blast in Hawaii but everywhere were painful reminders that Hubby's not here but I was mostly able to overcome them since I was never really alone the whole time. Then I got home.

Don't get me wrong, I love being back in my apartment, I'm a bit of a homebody actually so I really missed being home. The first thing  I did when I got back was take a big ole long nap to recover from the redeye flight. Then I woke up and realized I was alone. Again. And it just made me really sad.

My kitties were really sweet and tried to console me (they even slept with me all night) but they just couldn't cheer me up. Their little warm bodies are not nearly the same size or temperature of the man I'd like to be laying beside.

So I've basically been in a funk because Hubby's not here and all my friends have been out of town for the summer or really busy. So I felt really isolated and alone.

But lucky for me, the clouds have finally started to part as Hubby's long-awaited R&R draws near. It's right there, just looming over the horizon, so close I can almost feel it. Yesterday was the first day that I've actually started to feel excited. Not that I wasn't before, it just seems more real and like it's actually going to happen now whereas before it was a distant dream.

I'm officially ending my pity party now.